Friday, April 18, 2014

There is magic in 23

Happy birthday to me!

23 don't get much good reputation but I feel more awesome than ever. There is a certain freedom that comes with being older, knowing that I have experience another year.

There is too much things I have learnt this year but if I can put it in bullet form:
  • Don't be afraid of making mistake. Instead, it is a shortcut to learn.
  • Don't be afraid of taking risk. I like Jeff from Coding Horror motto: always pick the choice that scares you a little.
  • I have to decide yourself which part I am going to take, what to believe in, what to fight for.
  • And no, I am not that smart. And yes, I suck at many things. And that's okay, too.
Maybe it's just the realization that hey, I actually need to work hard. I need to fight for the things I want, and live life the way I believe in. And like it or not, I am stuck with myself for the rest of my life. Might as well equip myself and learn about myself the best way possible.

It's not going to be easy. Nobody says it is easy. But at the very least, I think it will be worth it in the end.

Here for another great year!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Nokia, old friend, you will be sorely missed.

Normally I won't have much things to share, but today is not any normal day. It is death of once unrivalled king, how the mighty has fallen.

Many people will simply roll their eyes when I express my melancholy, and I don't really want to explain to those who are uninterested. But I will explain it here for who want to know and for my own future reference.

I grew up with Nokia. My first phone, humble Nokia 3100 with its glow-in-the-dark chassis, 4096 colour screen, polyphonic ringtone. It is the phone I used the least, with basically no feature other than making a call and SMS. Yet, now, 10 years later, it is still usable as a backup phone. How many phone can boast the ability of making call and SMS 10 years later?


My second phone, Nokia 5500, is the most short-lived in my history of phones, with its 2 years lifespan. Short as it is, it lived gloriously. I still remember spending my free time snuggling in bed, squinting my eyes to read tiny, tiny text on 2 inch screen. Oh, it was annoying to use, so full of weaknesses and compromise. The rubber that made the keypad fall off after not even 1 year of use. But yet, it is the phone that teach me the wonder of technology. The one who make me fall in love with my second love, technology. A phone that shape a big part of me. It is the most short-lived phone, the one with most problem, the most unreliable one, the ugliest one even. But yet, the one who has greatest impact of my life.

My 3rd phone, Nokia E63. The one I am still using 4 years later, which is now. It is so severely outdated and I question myself everyday as tech enthusiast, why I still use this phone that is barely usable even as feature phone? But yet, I love this thing, this baby, this power horse. I will probably going to change my phone soon and very soon, yet every time I use it, it is still bring a sense of joy, of wonder. How can this baby works so well even after 4 years of (ab)use is a mystery that may never be solved. In recent light of thing, I guess this will be my last Nokia smartphone, or even my last Nokia.


Nokia as smartphone maker is dead. Anybody who followed technology closely enough will mourn. Websites beginning to pour the stories in droves, Twitter is crowded with all grieving, speculation and questions. It is so befitting I guess; a tribute to the once King, to the one we all still loved despite everything.

Me, I feel that I lost an old and dear friend. I believe not only me feel that. Nokia, you truly change the life of millions and billions people in the world. I will never forget your motto: "Connecting people.". You did, to the rich and the poor.  You make technology affordable, reachable even to those unprivileged.

You will be sorely missed.

Friday, July 12, 2013


Be still and know that I am GodGod, help me to remember.  Your love, Your goodness, Your mighty hands. Remember that when I have You, I have more than I could ever needed. If Your grace is a minuscule droplet of water, I will have been drowned.

Teach me to be humble. So I may remember I am but dust; here today, gone tomorrow.  A flicker of flash (and not even a bright one at that) in the short history of humanity, not even a tiny dot in an unimaginably vast universe.

And as I look up to You, You are always there. Carry me as I soar with You, be joyful beside me as I run, hold my hands as I struggle to walk and not faint.